Archive | June 2010

God’s Economy…Part II

If there is one thing I have learned about God’s economy it’s that although it makes “perfect sense” …to God, it often makes little sense to me…except … sometimes in hind-site. Therefore, since my little finite mind has difficultly understanding the greatness of my God when I am calculating a situation, I often begin not only to question my ability to hear Him, but, at times, I am even tempted to doubt my sanity.

An example of this would be the second job that I am now working. Let me back track a little bit to bring some clarity.  

A few months ago the Lord impressed upon my spirit that I was to go that afternoon to a certain building in town and fill out an application.  And, although, at first, I was apprehensive, after calling a few friends for prayer, I became excited at the prospect of not only a new opportunity, but the possibility of a full-time position with medical benefits.  Certainly, this is God’s answer to how I am going to pay my bills when my child support ends. 

Later that afternoon, when I entered the specified facility and saw an empty desk in front of me, I was certain, that at some point, I would be its occupant. So I nonchalantly walked over and stood behind it in an attempt to gain some insight as to what my future employment might involve. That is when I heard in my spirit I need you here.

So with visions of financial security and possible ministry running through my head, I approached a young woman and asked her who worked at the desk.  Her unexpected answer made me laugh…and not a HA HA kind of bubbly laughter either…it was more like the kind of laughter that Sarah exhibited in Genesis 18:12 when she was informed by the angel that she was going to give birth to a son in her old age.

Well, to make a long story short, after orientation, a blood test, mandatory shots, and the juggling of the company’s schedules, I am now working my volunteer desk position once a week. And I have to say that I have been tremendously blessed, for not only has my desk become a prayer altar, but my life has also been touched by the amazing people around me.

As I am writing this, I am reminded of a testimony a missionary shared with our congregation quite a few years ago.  When God told him to buy a swamp, not only was he ridiculed by the populace but even his church members had a difficult time believing him.  Little did any of them know, that a few months later that swamp would be drained as the result of a building project up the road and would become a multimillion dollar property.  Yes, God’s economy…give when you don’t have it…work for a swamp.  No, it might not always make sense…but with God in the equation… it always makes a difference!

Let me clarify here, I belive that God’s economy has more to do with hearts and purposes than it does finances. When He calls us to give or do; He is really calling us to trust and love Him as he gives us opportunity to allow Him to pour His love through us to others.

Lord, thank you for reminding me in Isaiah 55:8-9 that your thoughts and ways are much different and higher than mine.  When I think security and comfort; you are thinking love and destiny. Lord, You are truly amazing!

God’s Economy…Part I

I’ll never forget the economics lesson I learned before I went on a mission trip to the Philippines. With a little over a week left before departure I was still in need of $1,500.00.  And although I prayed believing for the necessary funds as well as provision for my three teenagers who would be fending for themselves during my absence, I didn’t have any answers or direction.

Then came Sunday morning…,

Isn’t it funny how sometimes one minute we can be bellowing out praises to God from the depths of our hearts and the next we can be at war with Him? Unfortunately, that is what happened with me when I was impressed by the Lord to write a check for $100.00 over my tithe and put it in the offering. It was a serious Dr. Jekyll; Mr. Hyde moment as I was instantly transformed from a worshipper to a worrier.  Actually, I was beyond worry…I was just plain angry. “God, don’t you realize.  I need more; not less!”

Upon returning home after service I was still having an attitude problem about the extra money I had been led to give, until God, in His faithfulness, called me on the carpet as He spoke into my spirit, Do you want to live by My economy… or yours? Because if you live by your economy, you will never be able to accomplish what I have for you to do.

 Hmm… I had to think about that for a minute before answering, “OK, Lord, I want to live by yours.”

Amazingly, before the week was over, not only had I been blessed with more than I had been praying for, but a relative upon discovering I was going on a mission trip, called my daughter and said that he was going to send her money so my kids could eat whatever they wanted while I was abroad; even if that meant steaks.

Although I was feeling secure in having all my needs met as well as having an additional designated amount to gift in the Phillippines, the day before departure God spoke to my heart that I needed to pray for 50 more dollars. However, since I was busy packing and running around doing last minute errands, a lengthy prayer session was not an option so I  just threw up my hands and said, “OK.  If you want me to have more, than you are just going to  have to bring it.” And He did.

At 3.00 in the afternoon I answered a knock at my door to receive an envelope from a friend of mine.  She said, “God told me I needed to bring this by today and give it to you.’  You know, I think I was more excited about receiving that last $50.00 than I had been with the almost $1,700 before it.

Anyway, as I gave what was determined in the Philippines, God placed a vision in my heart that would require more than I could make in a lifetime. A vision that only He could bring it to pass.  A vision that I received encouragement about the other day when a friend of mine shared a story with me about a woman who was led to rasie $20,000.00 for an orphange.  Knowing the impossibity of the situation she told God, “It might as well be a million!” To which He replied, “It might as well be 20.00. ” 

Yes, in God’s  economy…when in need…give, when in doubt…trust. when lacking understanding…surrender. For whether it be $20 or $2o,000.00, it’s all the same to Him and …it all makes “perfect” sense.

The Adventure of All

Well, it’s a good thing I have become re-acquainted with God’s faithfulness in the past because soon I will be heading into another season of “holding onto the promises”.  For not only have my hours been cut at work because of the economy, but since my youngest son has graduated, I no longer have child support.  These recent developments now leave me with two choices. Either I can embrace this season and view it as a grand adventure in which I have the privilege of seeing the Lord once again do the impossible, or I can freak out.  Or can do some of both, which is my normal method of operation.

You would think with past testimonies to encourage me, and present assurances (for just recently, as I was walking to work one morning, the Lord promised me that I wasn’t going to miss a beat as far as my bills were concerned), that I would have no problem with trust. But unfortunately, at times, I still fall into “Thomas Mode” and begin to doubt what I can’t see or feel. 

That is when I once again find myself in the book of Matthew.  Matthew  6:25-34 to be exact.  I refer to it as the “Do not worry passage”, and although I can’t relate to sparrow feed (I’ve never been too found of worms) or garments made of petals I can take heart in knowing that as I “Seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness.”..ALL things will be added unto me.

And that ALL includes not only my earthly necessities , but also spiritual nourishment of wisdom and understanding and the beautiful arraignment of His glory and His love.

Matthew 6:25-34 “Therefore I say to you do not worry about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink; nor about your body, what you will put on.  Is not life more than food and the body more than clothing?  Look at the birds of the air, for they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns: yet your heavenly Father feeds them.  Are you not of more value than they?  Which of you by worrying can add one cubit to his stature?  So why do you worry about clothing?  Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin; and yet I say to you that even Solomon in all of His glory was not arrayed like one of these. Now if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is, and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will He not much more  clothe you, O you of little faith? Therefore do not worry saying ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?  For after these things the Gentiles seek.  For your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things.  But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will  worry about its own things.  Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.”(NKJ)

Lord, thank you for your faithfulness.  Help me to be faithful (full of faith) as I am learning to trust you in ALL things.

P.S.  Although I am publishing this blog today, I actually wrote it a few days ago…So I wanted to add this quick testimony.  Today, I felt impressed of the Lord to buy a Bible for a friend, and since I had a little “down time” at work I got on line and began looking. About 15 minutes later a wonderful Christian woman I know walked into my work and handed me an envelope from the Lord.  In it was already 1/2 of the money I needed to buy the Bible.  The Lord never ceases to amaze me as He provides for it ALL…Let the adventure continue!

Have a  Blessed Day!

Not So Empty

 Monday afternoon I received a call from my youngest daughter “Mom, I’m sending you an unusual present for your Birthday! It’s something I found on the ground, but I think you will like it. Please call me when it arrives. ” Four days later I opened a small box containing a beautiful handmade card resting on top of a genuine, straight out of the yard, droppings and all, empty bird’s nest.

Now, when you get a bird’s nest for your Birthday you just know there has to be a message in there somewhere, but I couldn’t imagine what it could be…until I read the card.

And Oh! What a message it was!

Have you ever received a gift that you knew wasn’t only for you?  That is how I felt about the last sentences of my daughter’s beautiful, inspiring words. So it is with her permission that I share the following:

Now, about the bird’s nest…

The wind knocked it out of a tree, and I found it in our yard.  It spoke to me  first, of how when Dad left ,your nest was knocked to the ground.  And second, how God picked it back up again when you thought it was impossible.  And even though it may now be empty, it doesn’t mean that you have nothing left to offer the world.  but God has chosen this time for you to fill it with dreams, hope, joy, beauty, love, inspiration…things of God

Tears filled my eyes and joy flooded my heart as I remembered that just last week I was thinking of posting on my facebook status ,”The thing about an empty nest is sometimes it feels so…empty.”

But now, with the message of my unusual present, I realize that my nest is not as empty as I thought . And although my child rearing days have come to a close, my life has just begun.

Jeremiah 29:11  For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.”(NKJ)

Lord, may the message of the bird’s nest give us hope and minister to our hearts as we realize that you are the God of New Beginnings.  Fill the empty places and empty seasons in our lives with your presence, your joy, your passion, your purposes, and your vision. 

                                  In Jesus’ name… Amen!